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My name is John I am 35 and a openly gay furry I joined into the furry fandom in 2016 I hosted my first event for the local furry community for I hid I was gay for so long and I hid myself which resulted in my adventure of life love and coming out names in this story will be hidden my first event was with a wonderful man who was the only one that came to my first hosted event a man I call my fox . My fox could tell I was gay I was thrilled I didn’t have to hide myself I was thrilled to have someone who understood me and after my event I invited my fox back to my house I didn’t want him to have to travel back to his house at 1:00 in the morning my friend was staying with us asleep in a lazy boy chair at the foot of my bed at 1:30 I layed down in my bed I had setup a nice little foldable bed for my fox we didn’t want to have anything happen after all just meeting and getting to know each other but something told me I think there’s more hear then what I was feeling I grabbed my foxes hand and he kissed me and I kissed him back and the night of cuddling and messages where on nothing sexual happened that night we just spent the night giving each other massages and I layed down to be his pillow and we awoke in each other’s arms and that’s when we knew we loved each other and wanted to be ourselves I forgot my friend of 25 yrs and when he woke up and caught us asleep together he freaked out I was afraid of this this is why I never came out I didn’t want to lose my friends but I couldn’t even imagine what my friend did me and my fox decided enough was enough I took some time off from work and helped move him into a new hotel in Lynnwood Washington we had just settled in cuddled together in bed watching forest gump on tv and we get a knock on the door there is a police officer and the hotel manager and I knew my friend went postal and did the unthinkable they asked me we got a tip you where having intercourse with a miniature horse and huffing paint I asked the officer was it from this number. To which he replied yes I could no longer hide myself my friend made sure of this. So I went back to work 10 days later my vacation over my fox could see I was upset I hated my job the illegal sweatshop posing as a charity helping the disabled I reported them for working people in black toxic mold was told by the state of Washington it was ok to work in the conditions my fox my love my savior told me I should quit my job an he would hire me as his assistant to which I replied yes and gave him the largest kiss ever my last week was torture the company I worked for hired a legally blind manager working around heavy machinery and a racist assistant manager who only wanted to hire her own kind . My last day I turned in my time card because 2 days before my racist manager posted a list of layoffs 19 people including me because we where gay and white. After turning in my card I was told we are not laying you off just the faggots. To which I replied your looking at one hoe and walked out that night I decided to call my mom she told me I kinda figured it out I was just waiting for you to confirm you. I was happy I didn’t have to hide from my mom I told my sister’s they accepted me and we decided to keep it away from my dad for we where afraid of his attitude wouldn’t be great. Well my fox had to return to see his family in Ohio and we where planing on seeing each other again in December for our official coming out date. But less then 4 days from my birthday my fox passed from kidney failure I broke down my love gone my friend gone my lover gone. I decided it was time to tell my dad what he said made me cry.
I knew you where gay and I’m ok with it because it makes you a great and wonderful man that anyone would love to have.
It made me happy I no longer have to hide me.
But my adventure hit me hard when my partial fursuit arrived the suit my fox helped me get I wear dingo fox in his memory every time I go fursuiting I miss him everyday it hurts to grow and come out and I wouldn’t change a thing