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While most days are fine, some days are not as good as other. Some days I have had a lot of issues dealing with my own reason homophobic situation.
You see I met this guy who I fell hard for unexpectedly and I was considering things I never thought I would ever consider, marriage and kids, it came as a complete surprise because he told me he wanted these things and I had had people in the past and I shot those down when it was brought up. With this guy I didn’t. I knew then and there he was the one I was suppose to be with and that I knew I would never feel the same way for another person and soon he became my dream. Then one day he took all of it away and I prayed that we would get back together and my mother’s husband told me it wouldn’t be answered because God wouldn’t bring us back together because of He doesn’t approve of homosexual relationships and this bothered me because once again I had gotten verbally assaulted and I decided to put an end to it because I have had enough of abuse, as it’s all I have known all my life. I decided to take a stand and prove him.
Since this has happened, stuff has come out about the guy I am in love with like him being a catfisher and some other stuff but nothing is altering my feelings, I still love him, I still want to prove my mother’s husband wrong.
I have been battling this for 2 years now and I still hope and I still pray to be with this man and prove my mother’s husband wrong.
The reason I tell this story is cause inside there are times I ask “Why I would continue to be kept from who I love? “Why would God let my mother’s husband be right?” “Why am I wrong for loving this man so strongly?” Most recently I have started asking “Does God not love this guy to deny him someone who truly loves him? Does God not love me for loving someone unconditionally?” This is going to happen, especially when you are still waiting for it to happen, like I am, my advice is to keep hoping for it and believing it is going to happen and to accept you are going to have your off days, especially when it is someone you really want to be with. Nothing is easy and good things come to those who wait, in time it will happenif you believe it will, or so they say, and it is okay to wonder why it takes so long and question as long as you don’t let it sway you from what you want or to give up and give in. That’s the message I want to give, for myself and others, don’t give into homophobia, don’t let it go, don’t let them be right, don’t give up. Fight and prove them wrong.